My weave makes me itch!!!

I was going to save my return to the blogging world for New Year's Eve and some deep reflection of my incredible, roller coaster of a year. But, then my weave started itching. Or, to be more specific my very dry, Sahara like flaky scalp under my weave started to itch. Trying my best to ignore the itch and fight the urge to pull it off ( hard to do with a sew in) and throw it across the office at an unsuspecting co-worker I forced my mind to focus on other things. In turn, I accidentally sent myself into deep and reminiscent thought. ..Hold on I'm scratchin.

This year 2007 has been truly my year of growth. I can't remember when if ever I have come to the end of a year just feeling grateful and full of joy. This year I got my smile back and my hope back. I exhaled. I stayed on my knees in prayer learning how to have a relationship with God. I lost a lot emotionally, and materially and gained even more.

Like the codes in The Matrix I can feel my life come together and click in, make sense and I am finding my way. Remember that quote from Diary Of Mad Black Woman"
I am find myself. That's it. I am finding myself." Maybe,even that's not true. I can't honestly say I know the woman I am becoming but I like her.

She is grateful for every tear shed and even feel the horrible bout of heartbreak experienced this year played an amazing part in healing some past hurts.
What doesn't kill you indeed makes you stronger!!!

There were some definite tragedies this year. This year I alone I attended more funerals than I have my entire 37 yrs of life. Death indeed left his calling card
everywhere. He didn't care. I experience lost of people I cared for in the prime of their life all the way to the dusk of the years. Everything from sudden unexplainable sickness to taken life in their own hands and cutting it short by choice. Of course, the loss of my friend Kim who committed suicide hit me the hardest. I think of her daily. I will never forgot what it felt like to pack up her house, to get rid of her things. To stare at the bullet hole in the wall...to clean the blood from her carpet. To try to forget her scent, her laugh her smile and beautiful green eyes. But, I thank her. It was watching her fight with depression and not being able to find a way out besides death that moved me to different choices. To refuse to give in to depression and life woes and fight back.

Fight back I did.

I still have a long way to go. But, I am on my way. I learned where truth and strength comes from. When I feel weak or as if I am drifting or disconnected. I now know what it means to close the door and spend a little quality time with my Father!!!

My children are growing and healthy. Their father joined the military(hey guaranteed child support!!), I love my new job with unlimited overtime and opportunity!!! If you are wondering if Casanova Brown is around still and yes he is. Even there things are good.

With all that I am happy to see 2007 to go. According to the bible 8 is the number of new beginnings. 7 is the number of completions. I am confident in saying I closed a lot of chapters and let a lot go in 07. I no longer feel like I am recovering from life's ..well life. But, instead I am writing a new book altogether.

I have a lot planned for 08. I plan to get my luxury or semi luxury car by my birthday!! I will keep you posted on what wins out.. right now we are looking at BMW's...Benz's or Audi's(they have a good performance record).

I pray a peaceful transition into the New Year for everyone. If you have not yet brought you chapters to an end. Do so before 12/31 so you can embrace

08 THE OFFICIAL YEAR OF NEW BEGINNINGS!!!

BE BLESSED... SEE YOU IN 8!!